Sunday, January 31, 2016

The Big One

Friday.

A game changer.

The day of the big one.

Our daughter has battled with uncontrolled epilepsy for nearly 3 years.
She will be 4 years old in about 2 weeks.

She had a rough pregnancy, her first seizures on her first birthday, lots of testing and trips to Children's hospital, many different meds and treatments. She is my little hero.

The seizures are normally absence seizures. She looks like she zones out, spots on her face twitch, and just as quick, she comes right back and goes about playing.

But, this one...

This one was on the floor, convulsing, little lips turning blue, mommy calling 9-1-1.

This was scary.

*We're all ok now*



I've started Bible journaling.

I've had some trouble over the past couple of years getting into the Word.
It's hard with all these littles running about to find the time or energy to really study.

This has been a GREAT way for me to meditate on scripture in the midst of mommy hood.

I'm not super confident in my artistic ability.

But, this one, including her sweet little handprints, is one of my favorites so far.



When we were going through our crazy pregnancy with her, we were told we were miscarrying her. I trusted God to do what He saw as best, but I (of course) wanted this child to be healthy and whole and a part of our family.
"For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition that I made to him."
      1 Samuel 1:27
In the next verse, Hannah is expressing that, because God saw fit to give Samuel to her, she would give him back to the Lord.

While we were pregnant, my father-in-law told us that our sweet Little Miss would be used mightily for the kingdom of God.

On our bad days, I struggle to see how that can come true, but I'm hopeful. I hope that people can see the way the Lord is giving us hope, the way He is sustaining us, the way He is protecting her and providing for us. I hope people can see that even on my darkest, saddest days, I still trust Him. I've honestly really been struggling, but I know He is good. I know He loves us. I know He cares for her.
I know.

Give us strength to be used by you, Lord.

"For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition that I made to him.
  Therefore I have lent him to the LORD.
  As long as he lives, he is lent to the LORD."
       1 Samuel 1:27 & 28

I'm so grateful.
-kt







7 comments:

  1. The Lord is already using her... Mightily! When was the big one? Yesterday?
    Love, hugs, and courageous prayers to you :-)

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    1. Thank you! It was Friday, the 22nd.

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  2. The Lord is already using her... Mightily! When was the big one? Yesterday?
    Love, hugs, and courageous prayers to you :-)

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  3. Such a sweet blog post. Thank you for sharing.

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  4. I'm a friend of your parents. I've been following your/her story. Praying for your family. Hugs.

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  5. I have been a friend of your mom and dad for many years. Our HRT Wednesday night ladies' Bible study has been praying for little Evie, and for you. I pray for her daily (okay ... almost daily ... my prayer time isn't as consistent as I would like it to be either). So there are a lot of people praying for you - that God would strengthen and sustain you, would give you wisdom and courage, comfort and peace. And there are a lot of people praying for little Evie, for healing and comfort and joy, but mostly for healing. She is your beautiful little girl -- but she is God's beloved child. He loves her the most, which is really hard to fathom given the depth and breadth of a mother's love. Cling to Him and He will sustain you.

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